The battle of work

The position I'm in at work essentially gives me no authority for much of anything. I'm considered a "temporary" employee and a lot of what I do, I actually shouldn't be doing according to district regulations. For example, all money handling needs to be done under the supervision of a "board approved" employee, of which there are none, and I shouldn't be counting the money from the events and depositing it.

My current boss continues to try to put more responsibilities on me and other employees think I am the one to go to, to make decisions. Part of me wants to just move everything up the chain of command past me. Not for the sake of being lazy, but just kind of saying "hey I still shouldn't be making these decisions, but if you'd like move me into a position that can, I'd be okay with that" Then the other part of me wants to take on all these responsibilities despite not being rewarded for doing so to be an example to everyone around. I have every right to do only a "temporary" employees duties, and nothing more, since anything is beyond my domain.

I may never be recognized for the work I put in here at the college, but as I stick it out and do get these new responsibilities and tasks put before me, I gain experience that I didn't have before. And God is teaching me to be diligent regardless of not being noticed for it, and I think that'll help me when I am in a job where there is the possibility of promotion and having this time to look back on will keep me motivated to glorify Him in my performance at work.

Cherishing my moments with her

In the 6 months me and Cassia were apart, God revealed a lot of things that I needed to take care of in my own life and the mindset I needed when starting our relationship again. I'm not going to go into all of those things now, just because it could take awhile.

We (Cassia and I) seem to agree that one of the hardest parts of being apart was not being able to be there for each other and just not being there with each other. We both went through some things during that time and all we could do was silently lift one another up in prayer, all the while wishing we could be there to comfort the other. I had a hard time going to places separately that we once went to together. I would go to restaurants or stores that we would frequent and it was always hard. I hated leaving church on Sunday because I knew I wouldn't be able to see or talk to her during the following week.

But now God has returned her to me. I am able to come along side her and be a significant part of her life again. As we go through our trials and circumstances, I know I have her there with me and I have the tangible comfort that I so greatly missed. Instead of "cheering" for each other silently we get to spend time in prayer and the word together. We now are able to return to those places we once visited, and find new ones to create new memories at. :)

And that is what God has been showing me these past few days, to always cherish my time with Cassia. I think it's partly because she's starting school again and mostly because I just need and want to always remember the blessing she is to me. I don't ever want to lose sight of the great gift that she is. And when I do remember that, it makes our relationship so much sweeter. It makes all the times we are together special; whether we are shopping, eating out, watching tv, hanging out with friends, praying, etc. Even when we are together and doing these "ordinary" things, I think God used our time apart to make me realize every time we are with each other is "extraordinary" and special.

A newbie

I'm new to the blogging "scene" so we will see how it goes. Within the past few years I've been giving the desire and gift (if you want to call it that) to write. I guess you can say it stemmed from the need to release what I have within me. I'm not always the most eloquent speaker and so I've found that when I write, I can be more clear as to what God has shown me. Which leads me into one of the greatest truths about this "gift." I do believe God gave me this desire to glorify Him, and so far I've found I can only write when He first has spoken to me. I go through times of nothing, wondering if I'll ever be able to write something new, and then when I'm least expecting it, and when I'm always needing it, He reveals Himself to me. And as I've written before, that is how I feel all gifts should be, only used when inspired by God, because frankly they are meaningless without His inspiration.

So I imagine this will be a mixture of new things and a collection of my old "favorites." Who will come across this? I have no idea. But my hope and prayer is that everyone will be entertained and most importantly see God in my life.