"When I Remember

These lyrics are some of my favorite and most touching. I think they adequately represent several times in my life where I felt nothing, and had to be reminded that God has always been there to hold me in His arms

Blindside
When I remember

That boy is gone
Sometimes I miss the way he wept at night
To be still and not run
To be rocked to sleep in Your light
These days there is not much that will bring tears to my eyes
But when I remember who I am and who You are
When I remember
A cloud moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes, and sunshine breaks through the clouds

I am walking blind
So distracted that I dont even feel when You hold me
When did i grow such thick skin
You are my sunshine and rain
My joy and sweet pain
I'm a spotless stain
That boy is gone
But nobody moves me like You do
When I remember

A cloud moves in, rain falls, thunder strikes
And sunshine breaks through the clouds
I can cry out of sorrow and joy
Every drop of rain turns into a crystal in the sun
So wash my eyes, my clothes, my skin, my bones, my soul
My feet, my love
I'm not forgotten
I'm in Your thoughts cause I feel sunshine in the rain

To this day nobody moves
Nobody
Nobody moves me like You do

In His word I'll place my trust

"As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless..." 2 Samuel 22:31

Reading is something that has never come natural to me. I have the ability to read well, but my mind is prone to wander to pretty outrageous places. So staying focused while reading is my problem. I can read through an entire page and then get to the end and realize I didn't remember a single thing from it. I enjoy reading now unlike earlier in my life, but it is still something that I struggle with.

The struggles are of course the same with the time I spend in God's Word. I've always had a difficult time motivating myself to daily get into the Bible, and when I do I still find my mind drifting off. It's frustrating but I can't let my "personality" be an excuse for a lack of quality time with God.

Recently there has been a shift in my attitude towards my devotions. I have yet to determine God's exact reasoning for it yet, but I'm excited to learn why. For some reason I feel pressed to make sure I am in the Word consistently right now. I think because of where I'm at in my life, I just really need to be entirely in tune with God's desires for me. I long to be a Godly man and a leader, more so than I ever have, and the Holy Spirit is reminding me it is through His words that I'll be taught. I've always had mentors who have spurred me on in this, but it is exciting to me because it is entirely from God this time.

I pray that this new found desire to want to hear from God through His word will not be fleeting and that I'll always find myself wanting to read and study. The past few days at work I've found myself just wanting to stop everything and read something, and that's exciting because that has never really been the case. I think God wants to take me to the next step in my relationship with Him, and I want to be ready for whatever that may entail.

A short oldie

"Love is the overflow of joy in God that meets the needs of others"

Without joy in my God, love as it was truly intended to be, will never be expressed in its fullness. There are many people in my life who deserve this perfect love and I will always fall short in giving it. Thankfully I have a God Who can and will love these people through me somehow. I don't understand how He does so, but I know it is a beautiful thing when I allow Him to.